So I Live Again
Once, I have loved someone greatly. And I thought after pouring all I had and all I was then - only to find myself with a heart that was deeply wounded and a perspective that has made me look at love in such an indifferent manner - I was done. I thought I am never going to be capable of loving anyone as strongly as I did that one person; I thought I’ll never risk anything again to feel so much for someone; I thought my heart has ceased to function and just gave way to reason. But I thought wrong. Once again, I am finding myself in the shoes of a girl I had long forgotten. She was me and now she’s living. - All because of YOU.
Funny that for someone who has become so guarded, I never saw you coming and hitting me like lighting and storm combined. Maybe I have let my guard down when it came to you because you were someone I honestly did not see myself falling in love with. But you just crept in, without me noticing at all, and now here I am, probably crazy for you alone.
To many’s eyes, you are probably a Ben Stiller. But to my eyes, you are a Ben Affleck! You can make me walk a thousand miles in high heels because you don’t have a ride to take us places and I won’t care at all if with every step I take, you are right beside me. I don’t care if you don’t have the riches to give me all that’s material, because frankly, I never cared. So if you think, even for one bit, that you are not “right” for me just because of the cliched drama of “the pauper and the princess”, I will have to slap you to reason! Give me credit and know that when I fall in love with someone, it goes beyond anything that is shallow.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I am sure now - I am falling in love with you and no amount of reason or thinking can stop me now from taking the fall. Honestly, I am so scared because I’ve been in this place once and have stayed there for 13 years. You have brought the girl back to life and even if I’ll have to wear torn shoes again, I am thanking you for it. I never thought it was possible, but here it is now. It’s happening and every day, I am remembering how to really love and live. I am turning 25 soon and this gift of re-awakening is more than anything I could ever have wished or hoped for as I hit my quarter of a century in this lifetime.
Thank you. =)
